Just another phases in life

Woot-Too! Guess what, i've just done some crazy stuffs today. Wonder when can I use my brain rather than heart again. How to? Can someone teach me???!!!%#@*?! Can I have another day like this... I wonder!

Im still have a bad headache and my chest is still pain. But slightly better.. Sucks man! What's happening to my body? Pls dun alarm me... If not, Im in trouble. I dun have xxxxx... pls dun! Im still young!!! pls spare meeeee....!

There seems so many things undone. Dammm it! When can I breath again...? I wonder. When can i hv the time to sit and draw freely again. When can I go travelling again? when can I shop till drop again. Guess, it's time to give up lots of nonsenses... before my time is up!?

Hmmmm... hopefuli, i'll meet angels and masters along the way. To guide me to where I should be and what I should do =) To wake me up from my dreams...!!! Who, pls shake me up from my dreams...

What's up next?!

Things has not been getting better and I expected it. Sometimes, I reali wonder what's in his mind. I did'nt want to quarrel with him, perhaps my expression give the wrong impression.. that I am angry. I am in fact sad... not angry.

My morale is still low..low..low, way beyond hope, i guess. I could feel the pain in my chest, it's still there. I did'nt tell anyone. Guess, perhaps i should belongs to the hamster family. Or perhaps I should'nt be in this world. Everything I do seems not right. Someone along the way, will be angry with me or for what I've said. Perhaps that is why I no longer speak as much. Could that be the reason? I have no answer...

For what i've read, yes. Perhaps I should ask myself, "what should I achieve today, and seek for an answer. Then pray hard...". Is that what a christian will do?

At times, i keep asking myself.. what on earth am I for. Why should'nt I be doing something that is more meaningful, something closer to my heart. Something that will cheers me up and give me motivation. So much more than what I am doing now. It seems im getting no where. It has been approxi. ten years. Oh my, time reali flew. Now that there's endless newbies in the market. Some are brainless, more are sucking up to bosses... almost everytime. omg! *faint*

What a New Year greetings for me! Sucks!

Welcome to my blog! Be it you've drop by accidentally or intentionally...

This NEW YEAR 2010 reali surprises me a lot.. Things did'nt suppose to happen, happened. Things suppose to work, did'nt. Im thinking, why is God making a fool of me?

Im having a great headache and reali bad gastric after having doses of alcohol! After being drunk and puked... did'nt expect all these nonsense. I felt too acidic in my stomach and is still not right. Guess Im have a up-side-down life now. Everything seems to be in a mess! Life's sucks mann! Dammmm!!! I wonder 'what's next?' Guess I'm reali f**k up this time round.

Im still giddy and not well. Sucks.. there are so many things going to happen in the upcoming weeks/months. Gosshh, how am I going to handle with such low morale. In fact, I've just got a shock in my life. I am so hurt... so hurt that my heart has dropped. All thanks to you!